So, this isn’t necessarily easy to post, but given that I’ve been open with the history, I guess I need to be open with the present and future. Perhaps I was hoping that at least part of the cancer in my body was going to be “history”….
When they opened me up, they discovered what the doctor termed “seeds of cancer” on the abdominal wall, in particular on the right-hand side of my body. I’m not really sure of the extent of it; bottom line is that the doctor didn’t want to proceed with complicated surgery that might result in delayed healing and allow these seeds to grow into full fledged tumors. That would be bad.
So, it’s time for me to heal up and get back on chemo. I have a lovely incision from sternum to groin that needs to heal.
As far as future options, there is a procedure that they do here called HIPEC that might be an option down the road. And there are some other options to treat the abdomen. The pelvic area is just tricky to treat. I’ll need to meet with the oncologist here to determine a treatment plan.
I can’t lie. I feel defeated. But life goes on, as they say. People tell me to stay positive, but I don’t really know what that means. I’m going to stay eternal. For some reason that gives me a lot more comfort.
Thanks again for all of the support and prayers. We feel so covered in love, and I know that this is strong testimony to the present reality of resurrection life. It isn’t easy, but I know Christ is using this trial to transform me, Kim, my kids, and my family and friends into who we were really meant to be. When I look at pictures of myself from when I was younger, I’m struck at least as much as how I’ve aged physically as I have grown spiritually. And I really wouldn’t wish to go back.