I want a new drug.

Hey folks.

First the great news:  Kim and I are going to Italy tomorrow with family. We’ll try not to drink so much wine that we can’t remember any stories to tell you. 🙂

We are on our way home from Nashville after meeting with my oncologist this morning. The good news is that a clear decision was made. The bad news is that they are pulling me off of the clinical trial.

Where does this leave us? Well, the most likely course is to begin a standard therapy of some sort. As I’ve said, because the primary tumor is encased in inflammation and stretches from my rectum and into my bladder through the very small space in between, it is very difficult to image. So, she cannot offer any phase I experimental trials at this point. But, all hope isn’t lost. First, I could very well get a good response from the therapy, hoping that the chemo isn’t too rough. Second, we plan to have that elusive MRI on Wednesday, Oct 10 when we return to Nashville after my vacation. If the MRI shows more clearly the [BLEEP] tumor, then I may yet be a candidate for one of the newer experimental trials.

Needless to say, phone calls home with the kids haven’t been easy. Their parents are about to be gone for 12 days, and their dad’s health situation ain’t as rosy as it was 12 months ago. But this is our life. I reminded my kids of what our pastor, Jared, told us on Sunday about faith. It has 3 components:  understanding (knowledge of the tenants), belief (assent to the truth of the tenants), and trust (actually living your life by those tenants). Number 3 is the hardest part, obviously, but this is what we remind each other to do. Trust.

If I can say one thing that stands out about my perception of God’s involvement in my life, is that His timing has been perfect. He is trustworthy. And tomorrow we go to Italy. Perfect timing–we need a break.

I trust that we’ll determine the best path to take when we return.

Love to you all.



I want a new drug, one that does what it should.
One that won’t make me feel too bad,
One that won’t make me feel too good.
I want a new drug, one with no doubt.
One that won’t make me talk too much,
Or make my face break out.

— Huey Lewis, “I Want a New Drug”

4 Comments Add yours

  1. tommymac7 says:

    Hope y’all have a great trip to Italy!
    I’m so sorry to hear about the clinical trial, but I am encouraged once again by your indomitable faith that the LORD is perfecting through this adversity. It is abundantly clear from your witness in this journey that He is walking with you daily, upholding you with his righteous right hand (as in Isaiah 41:10).
    We haven’t seen each other in a while, and I would love to get together upon your return from Italy. You & your family remain in my prayers every day.
    I love you , brother,

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  2. Tammy Andros says:

    Have a wonderful trip and well-deserved bit of fun. This weekend my family will travel to attend a religious service where an icon of the Mother of God dated to before the 10th century (yep, you read that right) will be present. Seven monks are visiting from Mt. Athos in Greece for a short time and have brought this miraculous icon with them. You will be in my prayers while I am there in the presence of this Holy icon.


  3. Debbie Cooper says:

    Brent and Kim-
    Praying for a fabulous time in Italy!!! Very sorry that your news is not as rosy. Thank you for this blog and your wise insights into life on earth. Hoping for better news after you return to Nashville!

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  4. Dave says:

    Have a great trip brother! Definitely drink enough wine so you can’t remember a damn thing. Salud!


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